Missing it.

Lol, i didn't even update during christmas or new year.
I wonder should i say yes or no when ppl ask me if i got a blog or not because i rarely update it =x..

Recently, listening to love songs makes my heart ache.
Especially when i'm boring and alone at home...
Thoughts will fill my head and etc~
That's why i'm currently active in sports =x...
To keep it out of my mind~
I'm trying to keep a balance between my studies/assignments and also fill my lifestyle with much entertainment~
I wanna escape reality~
But not neglect it =x..
To be honest, even though i always say being in a relationship is troublesome ("mendokuse" in japansese)
And costly
And stressful
And it may be a waste of time
And it may not last
And more
I miss that feeling alot.
But i don't think i'm commited enough to do so.
Due to the reasons above.
I barely have enough money to spend on myself.
My schedule is also quite packed.
My sleep debt is accumulating, so i wanna rest during weekends and not work part time.
Or actually it's because i'm lazy. =x

But i'm missing the feeling that makes me smile when i go to bed.

I think i'll be single for a very long time.
Anyway, i still have my left hand as my lover.
Lol.
And that's the end of this entry.

Ah wait.
I haven't really think of a new year's resolution yet.
Hmm....
I guess it's to get through college without any fails.
And keep on being active in badminton.
One more thing.
I wonder if this is a resolution or not..
I guess i'll try stuff to make myself taller.
=D.

Happy new year 2009!