Life

Optimistic and pessimistic

2009-05-23T21:37:00.000-07:00

People always say, try to be a little bit more optimistic and positive, good things will come to those that believe very much that they can achieve it.
Needless to say, when comparing between being optimistic and being pessimistic, of course an optimist would be better than a pessimist.

Now then, do you agree that being optimistic also means expecting something good and better to happen to oneself?
Maybe they're both different things, but there's a simple link between the two.
When you're optimistic, you tend to expect better things to happen to you later in life..
And of course in contrast pessimistic people would expect less good things and more conflicts in their paths.

It's true that being optimistic would make people happier in some way, and pessimistic people tend to be sadder although they're not in a situation that they should be worrying about anything at all.

Hmm, but lets take a look at the other side.

An optimist would probably be more active, happy, and outgoing in certain stuff with positive power in their mind. Thus, things would usually be better for them.
But what if some things, that're unpredictable and uncontrollable happens?
When you're being optimistic about certain things, and there're some things that you're powerless against, things that you're doomed to fail at, what would happen?
There's a saying, the greater the expectations, the greater the disappointment.
There may people that's soooooooo optimistic that they'll keep continuing being positive..
But how many of us are capable of being like that?
Especially when things that you want the most... can't be attained at all.. even though hard efforts and sacrifices are done and made?
What if it didn't happen just once, but many times more?

Is it safe to assume that some optimist are just being ignorant of their current condition? Especially to those that encountered multiple failures..
Being happy at all times?
What a joke.

I'm not saying being pessimistic is good either.. Some people that're so pessimistic they let go of things they could've obtain and achieve..
But then, since they're already so negative before shits happen, they probably won't be that down when it actually happens..

So, it's probably true that when you ask people to be more optimistic, you're indirectly telling them to expect better things, which would most likely affect them greatly when they experience a downfall..

Summing it up, being neutral is probably the best choice..
Do more, complain less, and expect less than others.

Smile.

2009-05-22T12:15:00.000-07:00

Just a pretty short entry..
Do you believe that some people smile better when they're at their saddest moments?
It's a weird question... but what do you think about it?

Reasons

2009-05-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

Why must everything be so complicated?
Why? Instead of finding reasons NOT to love, why can't we find ways to make it work out?
Should we commit ourselfs only after we're sure that we can last till marriage?
Should we think about all possible obstacles before taking the first step?

If people don't take risks, they're taking a greater risk.

I'm powerless because of this, but it's a risk i'm willing to take, because of those three words.

Pressure ar~

2009-05-02T05:10:00.001-07:00

Wahsai~ For the past few days there's so many pressures building up in me..
Studies + Exam + Retarded thoughts + 'that'..
Can't believe for a brief moment there i've considered taking up smoking to relieve it..
But i guess that's just escaping those pressures.

Staying home alone is so dangerous sia...
Stupid thoughts will fill the mind and eventually you'll find yourself sad for no particular reason at all..

Mid semester is just around the corner and i'm still playing games like i'm enjoying my holidays o.O~
Well, what can I say? Procrastination is something i do best :D

Hohoh, before I go gaming at gg client~ I just wanna say
I Love Pig~

Fragile.

2009-03-31T10:47:00.000-07:00

So fragile.
Pet cat was knocked dead 30th March 2009.
Onli information i know was that it's a golden coloured VIOS.
Once i've make sure which golden VIOS owner drove so fucking carelessly causing my pet cats death..
Sooner or later someone's windshield is going to break.

Valentine's day.

2009-02-06T03:29:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day is coming~

I would've forgotten about it if it weren't for people talking about it sooo much~ o.o..
Seems like guys with a gal needs to brainstorm for ideas to satisfy their gf's super hopeful heart of getting a romantic something from their guys.
Well yeah, good luck to em. They'd probably need it.

But i think it's quite strange~~
Maybe i've been watching too many dramas/animes/mangas and all, but i thought the ones that should give the partner something in a relationship should've been the girls..
And 1 month after that which is the white day, then only it's the guys turn to give back the girls something...
But strangely, girls usually almost give nothing to the guy at all!!! And guys that doesn't do something good for the girl in Valentine's day will usually be critized..

Sucks right? Lol.

But i won't have to worry bout that anyways =x

This might be early, but have a good time to those planning to celebrate Valentine's day~
I'd probably be revising for my mid semester finals during that time.. T.T

Peace out~

Personality Test.

2009-01-11T06:46:00.000-08:00

Tried this test i've found from Jean Yi's blog. http://www.jeangalz.blogspot.com/

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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I'm not sure if this personality test is accurate, since it isn't up to me to decide whether or not i possess those values stated. Then again, since test like this usually gives out compliment(mature, attractive, honest etc), people will probably think it's accurate. (Why so? =x)

Try the quiz at http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx ~

Missing it.

2009-01-09T08:16:00.000-08:00

Lol, i didn't even update during christmas or new year.
I wonder should i say yes or no when ppl ask me if i got a blog or not because i rarely update it =x..

Recently, listening to love songs makes my heart ache.
Especially when i'm boring and alone at home...
Thoughts will fill my head and etc~
That's why i'm currently active in sports =x...
To keep it out of my mind~
I'm trying to keep a balance between my studies/assignments and also fill my lifestyle with much entertainment~
I wanna escape reality~
But not neglect it =x..
To be honest, even though i always say being in a relationship is troublesome ("mendokuse" in japansese)
And costly
And stressful
And it may be a waste of time
And it may not last
And more
I miss that feeling alot.
But i don't think i'm commited enough to do so.
Due to the reasons above.
I barely have enough money to spend on myself.
My schedule is also quite packed.
My sleep debt is accumulating, so i wanna rest during weekends and not work part time.
Or actually it's because i'm lazy. =x

But i'm missing the feeling that makes me smile when i go to bed.

I think i'll be single for a very long time.
Anyway, i still have my left hand as my lover.
Lol.
And that's the end of this entry.

Ah wait.
I haven't really think of a new year's resolution yet.
Hmm....
I guess it's to get through college without any fails.
And keep on being active in badminton.
One more thing.
I wonder if this is a resolution or not..
I guess i'll try stuff to make myself taller.
=D.

Happy new year 2009!

About relationships.

2008-11-30T11:18:00.000-08:00

Another thing to think about~ xD

I'm pretty sure many teenagers will probably go through this phase in life~
You know~ whereby some of those that doesn't really do well in relationships will be sadden, going emo etc.... And those that usually have lots of ex bf/gf will swear/curse/complain when they breakup followed by sweet love quotes on their blog/msn/IM or something when they make up or found another partner..
(Of course not all of em, i really do salute those that can maintain a relationship for years even when they're only as young as 12-14 years old, some which even lasted to marriage.)

I wouldn't say it's lame, because as we move on in life, we will come to learn that there're some things that just ain't worth it to feel sad about.

I recently came to realise part of it, when 2 of my close friends started to couple not too long ago~ And they're not one of those that are that experienced in coupling... (Hiak Hiak Hiak~ xD!!)
Given the situation, they'll usually ask for point of views and advice on what they should do when they are conflicts..

There's many unspoken rule in a girl and boy relationship~A common one is whereby guys will usually fork out extra money when going to the movies, on food, calls, maybe even shopping... for the girls. This is very common and please take note that this isn't a complain from my side as a guys to the girls. I guess it's a kind of responsibility that we bear as guys are usually the dominant ones (True or not? o.O) and it shows masculinity.

As this post is about problems teenagers will face in a relationship, i'm sure the money usually comes from parents (pocket money) or part time jobs.. That being said, there will be an added expenses which arises when being in a relationship.
I guess this is the primary conflict my friends is facing.

And that is just one of it.

Makes me feel like it's damn blissful to be single now.
Of course, it doesn't mean that i hope to be a bachelor. =x

And i was like, "lol, u couple so troublesome single like me mah good lorh =D" to my 'that close friend'
What he replied was probably the reason i started this entry.

There's ups and downs being single and being in a relationship~
Many teenagers feel sad when they can't find someone to couple with, and there're some that doesn't treasure their relationship and feels that being single is better because of the troublesomeness of having a relationship.

I'm crapping alot, but what i think is...

We should fully enjoy every moment, even when we're single we can really be happy as there're friends. It's because i saw many single ones being over depressed because they broke up or fail in courting somebody... What some of them didn't know is that there're some happiness that can only be obtained while they're single. Being in a relationship is certainly a very joyful and happy thing, but what about the troublesomeness that comes with it?

Be happy when you're single, let the events in life lead you to the next step.. Don't spend every single moment of being single in sadness because you can't be with the one you love..
And to those that are in a relationship~
Treasure moments of happiness with your love ones, bear with the hardships in a relationship and not let the thought of the troublesomeness in a relationship lead you to end the love..

There're always two sides to everything.

(End of my crapping entry, sorry for the long post, and thanks even if you didn't read all of it... One more thing, there's no such word as troublesomeness =D)

Understand, please.

2008-10-30T10:40:00.000-07:00

It's less than 2 weeks till my finals.
I'm not in secondary school anymore where i can game hardcore and just trash all my subjects.
Gas, toll fees, parking fees, adds up to alot.
You think rm20-30 or so can cover up for the driving expenses i've incurred in a day?
I don't expect people to pay when i drive them around.
I want them to understand.
How the fuck am i suppose to enjoy myself hanging out when my finals is just around the corners?
Not to mention the handing up of major assignments and also the presentation.
I've just changed the battery of my car. Rm220.
Seems like the battery died for god knows what reason.
Last week friday, i pumped rm75 into my car (MyVi) and it all depleted like on tuesday, which i then had to pump another rm70.
It was my birthday month, mother gave me rm300 and my bro rm100.
Adding my own allowance it's 300+300+100 = 700.
Mum gave me extra rm200 when i told her i used my own money to pay for gas and smart tag.
Loan my friend rm200. Remaining : 700.
Withdrew rm500 from bank, so it means the total i can spend is rm1200 this month.
I've just got my atm card, so i'm feeling like so dumb fuck rich and i'm spending like mad on food.
But most of it was for gas.
Around rm120 was for smart tag.
Around rm300 was for gas petrol.
It's not even the end of October and i'm down to zero.
I feel like crap spending money like water.
And it kinda pissed me off when my friend keep calling me out, when i already fucked said that my exam was around the corner, and my gas expense is killing me.
It's the pressure of examination and my own gay spendings that's bothering me so much.
What i want to do now is, finish off my presentation, assignments, stay home and study, and score for my examinations.
Call me selfish, but i feel perfectly fine for driving kilometers doing something i want to, but not when i myself didn't want to go out in the first place.
Stop calling me out and asking me to drive around places.
Do not misunderstand.
During the past when you guys call me out of course i also wanted to hang out/see movies etc.
But it's a tough time for me now, and i feel really "tulan"(Upset + angry) when one of my friends say i "beh cham" (It means like cannot hang out, cannot mix, etc.)
It's an emo entry.
Sorry.
I'm just worried about my exams and spendings.
It's also affecting my mood to study.
Also just argued with dad over the car battery thingy.
Cheerful outside, tulan + stressful + emo inside.

Thanks for reading.
End of emo entry.

Something missing.

2008-09-10T00:10:00.001-07:00

Diao = =~ Today kena saman... Park beside the longkang beside the house also will kena... cipet sial... Anywayz...

During the first day of the orientation, we had to make our own group there and then, for the orientation purposes. Before that we had our english placement exam which will gauge our english level and depending on that we will be assigned to different tutorial group.

The very few friends that i've met during the orientation was the ones im hanging out with right now~ Strange huh, though the orientation onli lasted for 1 week and the tutorial already started for like 1 and a half month i'm still closer with the ones i met during orientation~

The day before the end of the orientation week, we've got our english placement exam result and we were instructed to go to our tutorial group.

Then there was when i met a girl~ She was cute, kinda petite, and was friendly. She introduced herself and i too did so... I guess she had left an impression of me because of her smile, and she was seated opposite of me.

During my first tutorial class, i was looking forward to seeing her again. It's not love at first sight, but then it's like there's a special feeling that i've felt... Like maybe we could be good friends, or something like that~ But then she was absent.

When she introduced herself she used her nick so when my tutorial mates looked at the name list they did not know who she was. But since she's the only one missing i knew immediately that it was her..~

I thought that maybe she may have had some problems and was absent for the first few days, but then it was certain that something really did happen to her, nobody knows what, and she wasn't even present for a single day~

Then now, during my mid term examination, i've noticed that her name was taken off from the name list and the total of our tutorial group was decreased by one~

And now, i felt that i've something missing. A friend maybe, could be a close friend, or perhaps maybe something more~

A void in my heart~

Emo?!

2008-09-06T10:17:00.001-07:00

Wonder why sometimes i just enter a state of "Emo"

I think alot.

When i'm with my friends, i can be like, talkative and friendly to them..
Then after a while when i'm deep in thought, i'll have this... emotionless, emo, sometimes tulan, or something like a i don't give a fu** kinda face..

Some people even told me before, "Can u dun be so 'cool' or not.. when people talking to you don't ignore leh~"

Strange lerx = =..

But i don't mean to be rude or anything like that.. I mean.. It's just the way i am.

But this only happens when i'm alone... Cause i'm sure in front of my friends i'm quite cheerful.. =D ~

College life~

2008-07-31T07:15:00.001-07:00

Hehe..

For those that usually read my entries you guys'll probably know my style..
Mostly complains and all those craps..

So this time i'll talk abit about how is my college experience so far~

Engaging in a conversation could be awkward, since i only used Chinese when communicating with my friends during secondary school.. But i quickly adapted to the new environment~

Of course, college life is full of freedom.. There's plenty of rest time as not all tutorial/lecture classes are packed together~ But of course with freedom comes responsibilities..

Lots and lots of club to join, and those of you that know me quite well you surely know which club i'll join.. Lolz~

There's also a small gymnasium~ And i often come here during breaks or after classes to do some minor workouts~

Most of my college mates are very friendly, and i'm glad it is so~
I've made wonderful friends, and even though we've been friends for hardly a week, it just feels like i can trust em completely.. This kind of atmosphere is just so so nice... Though it might not last long, i just hope it will.

I've been given briefing about how my assignment and presentation will be like, and it sure sounds scary.. But doing something new is always exciting~

All in all, my college life is so far so good~

But waking early and driving there everyday is really a pain = =~

Friends.

2008-07-25T12:24:00.000-07:00

I'll make this entry short.

I'm kind of confused now really, whether to have just a normal and good friend, rather than a close friend thats an asshole...

When u became close to your friends, of course the natural thing is that you guys mix together alot and they will probably be more straight forward with you.

And nobody usually mind thier manners when they're with their close friends, I mean, hei.. whats with the formality? You're with your close friends ma..

It's probably not the same with other people.

Try having your close friends, talking bad things about you in front of you.
When i say bad things, of course it's not like being selfish, or an asshole etc..
What if they insult you about ur person as a whole, your looks for example, like saying you're a fatass, or you look ugly, that sort of things.

When u get pissed of, they'll then say things like.. "Oh yah hor, forget d.. you cannot take a joke one.. haha"

That's may be right, maybe i couldn't take a joke.
But it doesn't seem that way when u repeat about it for a few times..

When you think about it, if they can say things like that about you in front of you, and then say that it's actually just a joke.. But certainly it's also because that in their mind they think like that about you only then they'll say it out loud, right?

I'd rather be more with my new friends at college, where all of them are mostly friendly, and helpful too.. Although it was just the first week of my college.

I won't comment much of who he is, let's just say.. If i were to describe him it would be, someone really selfish, and doesn't care much about the feelings of others.

你啦，又"insert insult here"啦,又"insert another insult here",還有hor又"insert another insult here".

And when you get pissed off, he goes :"哦。。忘記了，你這個人不能開玩笑的。。"

If that person read this he'd probably know who he is, and if he gets pissed off about my entry this time, i don't really care if we're still friends or not. Lol~

With friends like these, who needs assholes.

你說開玩笑，我說你傷到我。

Driving. (My own opinion)

2008-07-15T12:32:00.001-07:00

I believe, when most people have obtained their license and started driving, one important thing that they seek from their friends and family are approval.

When i say approval, it means something like trust. For example on the parents part, it'll be that they believe you and your skill in driving and allowing you to drive out without them by your side monitoring you...
And for friends, it's almost similar but slightly different..

You'd want them to trust you when you're driving and you have a responsibility to make sure they feel save inside your car when you drive. Some people may thought that one way of getting their friends approval is by speeding or doing dangerous things like near miss stunts in Need for Speed..

Yeah right..

What i feel is, if you want to speed in your car, go ahead. Just make sure that you're alone so you don't endanger the life of the people(s) that's in your car. When you're alone in your car, you can go ahead and speed up to few hundred km/h and crash into a concrete pillar or whatever.. And also do make sure to earn back the money need for repairing your car and return it to your parents..

Frankly, i feel that the most important thing is that you make your friends feel comfortable when you're driving.. Don't make them have the thoughts of "Wei... break liao... break liao a... BREAK LEH!!" everytime u reach a traffic light..

This entry posted by me here if of course for me and my friends that just recently obtained their P license..

Now then, apart from the things i written at the above...

I wonder if you guys out there have met with this kind of situations before..

Okay okay, i know i know.. I've just recently obtained my P license, and i know i'm still not that good at driving. But at least i know how to drive safely and have not yet met with any accidents whatsoever..

Few things that really gets me pissed when i'm driving..

When i do make a mistake, i'll admit it.. When i crashed or knocked my car during driving or parking, i'll apologise. And when i drive, i'd appreciate it very much if you only point out my mistake and not complaining about it.

Once when i was going on a 3 lane road which will later become a 2 lane road, i was at the middle.
When the 1st lane(left) was reaching the end, a car from the left lane that wants to come to the middle (the one i'm on) didn't slow down. And i have no choice but to turn to the right lane because if not the car would have crashed onto me, and that car didn't even give a signal whatsoever.. Since it was split second decision, i looked at my side mirror, there was no car coming and i just turned.

Oh yeah~ And there HE was~ going "hei, u switch lane didn't put signal one ar?"
Seriously i was speechless for a moment, luckily one of my friends sitting in the front said that the car from the left suddenly turned to my lane and didn't slow down so i did what i did.

There was also another time which when i already put a signal while wanting to turn in a junction, but HE didn't notice it as HE was sitting in the back.. And of course, there he goes like a parrot again..
"Want to turn didn't put signal one ar? wan to switch lane didn't put signal one ar?"
"You know o if you let police see u liddet drive hor police will revoke ur license"
"Walao eh what are you doing o"
"Why just now can turn u didn't turn?"
"You know o this lane is for speeding de so u should go faster when you're driving this lane."
"WEI!!! er.. no la nothing.. hehe"

Let me say this, it is very fucking annoying taking those shitload of crap when i'm driving and i did vent some of my anger by speeding. Sure, i won't say my driving is very good, but i sure as hell don't appreciate fuckers that is getting a ride of me free give me that much crap even when i did nothing wrong. I won't say "Fuck off if you want to complain so much about me driving." although that was what i was thinking.

But certain enough there won't be a second time me fetching that fucking chicken backside. (They say chicken backside shit nonstop and i find it quite similar to his mouth)

But of course i'm happy when some of my friends said that my driving did improve over the past few weeks, rather than complaining... These are the people that i don't mind giving them a ride..

Conclusion?
No.1) don't drive faster than necessary.
No.2) shut the fuck up if you're not the one driving.
No.3) assholes that just love to complain should just go take a bus or something.

Sorry for writing such a long entry filled with much complaining and profanities...
It's 4.20am now o.O~
I sure think alot when i'm in bed.. xD~
Oh yeah... thanks alot for reading~

Introduction.

2008-06-25T03:05:00.000-07:00

Although this is my first time blogging, i used to ramble alot about things at my msn myspace.. And since blogging seems to be more and more popular i thought that i might as well start my own blog~

I've plenty of free time before my college studies so if i have anything in my mind i'll try to add it in my blog~

I did hesitate when wanting to create my own blog as i have no confidence in myself that i'll update it frequently.. But i'll try and maybe edit the background of my blog so it'll be easy on the eye..

I guess that's it for introductions~ And thanks for visiting my blog~